my entry for weekly surprise week 11

Where do I start... This year has been so traumatic in the sense of my partner having a severe work accident and us having to close our business down all around the time I signed up for this program.  I am so proud to say I stuck it out and learnt so many life lessons along the way.  I look back at my weekly blog and my turning point was Sept 26^th where I wrote:

MAJOR LESSON LEARNT - There were never any sabotage’s to my weight loss over the years, I was my worst enemy and I own up to that I accept responsibility.  Now I will make the changes I NEED TO MAKE in order to become a better, healthier, happier person. Xo

In the past 3 mths I have:-

·         Kayaked with fellow wbt’rs

·         Joined a PT class with fellow wbt’rs which I love

·         Love my gym and workouts

·         Learnt to run

·         Faced my fear of heights with my 7 yr old daughter by my side

·         Started a Blog about my journey

But most of all I also:-

·         Cannot stop smiling

·         Am so positive about life instead of grumpy and negative

·         AM HAVING A BABY in which we were told we needed IVF but due to being so much fitter it occurred naturally.  We are so excited!!!

I cannot thankyou enough for the life transformation that has occurred within myself.  Even my mums negative comment when telling her I was pregnant “What., so you lose all that weight only to get fat again”, does not bother me, as I know that the next time I get fat it will be ALL BABY!!  

 Tears in my eyes as I cannot thankyou enough in words xoxoxo

Mini Triathlon Completed

Wow What an amazing week it has been.  First I was so focussed in training that I didnt even know the PT was saying hello to me whilst traiing someone next to me and yesterday I decided to JFDI!!!

I got myself into the right mind frame before entering the doors of the gym, I WILL DO THIS, I WILL NOT LEAVE UNTIL I COMPLETE THIS..................... and thats just what i did.

25km bike ride

6 km Jog - broken into 2 legs due to an injury ( did have to use the cross trainer for the last 1km due to arm chaffage HAHAHA)

3km row

PLUS  a 4 - 5 km walk with my partner earlier that morning.  All together 38 kms!!!

I cannot believe that i accomplished this - that I didn't give up and that I - NOT ANYONE ELSE - kept me motivated for the whole 1:59:58 seconds that it took to accomplish this goal.  I have learnt that arms need more toning though! LOL

I have been relying on my PT to push me through the past couple of weeks and although i missed training with Kev yesterday i taught myself that " i am worthwhile, that I can achieve whatever i want , as long as mentally I prepare myself - and that means thinking positive and zoning out. 

To celebrate my achievement my partner took me out for our first meal together since our daughter who is now 9mths old was born!!   We went to a lovely little restaurant, where I ordered barramundi with asparagus and requested that they hold the herb butter and any oils from this meal as I was following a strict diet and needed a lovely meal to celebrate my success today.  They were wonderful and kept filling my water up with fresh ice.  My partner ordered a dessert where I had one spoonful with my skinny cappuccino.
The whole day was a total success.  I am now ready to be able to hit any barriers i may come too when on holidays with family next week and am looking so forward to jogging around the gold coast.  LOVING LIFE

Not only am i getting fitter but I have also found that my whole personality has changed. that I have so much more love for my family, that I'm not grumpy all the time, and that now I RUN UP AND DOWN MY STAIRCASE AT HOME and I don't make other people go and get things and sit on my "once was fat ass" LOL xo

BACK ON LINE!

NEVER EVER HAVE I BEEN SO EXCITED TO HAVE THE INTERNET BACK AGAIN.

After 5 telstra technicians i am finally back on line and able to talk to my 12wbt family.  You have no idea how much I have missed everyone.  I even missed a whole week of print outs to follow but still managed to keep a consistent weight loss by monitoring everything. 

I have met so many wonderful people through this experience and my partner is so impressed with me by the way I have changed from the negative person i once was every morning after getting on the scales to the positive person I am now.   I found myself dancing around with my 9 mth old daughter in my arms this morning with no inhibitions of worrying about what i looked like.  Huge change!

Even with all the external excuses that are totally out of my control at the moment I have stayed positive and know that life will soon get back on track and that i am so lucky that my partner did not die from his accident.  By the way - power saws are now banned from our house!!!

Anyway , Just thought i would drop a quick letter to ssay  I MISSED YOU ALL SO MUCH XOXO

IN MY ZONE AND LOVING IT!

Did a trial triathlon a few days a go in my brand new kayano sneakers and skins and felt fantastic!! Even with a sore back I didn’t give up I just substituted the run foe the cross trainer. Apparently the PT that works there said hello to me as she was raining a person next to me and I didn’t even know.. I was totally focussed on getting the job done. 
Feel so fantastic and looking forward to my qld trip next week. Seaworld will be great to jog around each morning and I have even organized for groceries to be delivered after I arrive so as I have fresh food from the moment I get there. SO ORGANISED!! Just need telstra technicians to fix Internet tomorrow so I can get back on line and chat to everyone!! Have missed my Wbt family so much!!!

Inner Labrador Tamed!!!

How good is an ipod.  At gym today I decided to listen to the podcasts and step it down a notch on the cross trainer so as I could soak in all of Mish's info.  I came home and had a carrot stick, and then picking Chels up from school I was tempted to go through macca's for a $0.50 cone but her voice was ringing through my brain so I came straight home.  YAY!!! Its working

Also am so bloody proud of myself as the past 2 days i have moved 2000 roof tiles approx 50 metres to another part of the backyard.  That is 8 tonne!!  And the motivation behind this was - i want the concrete down around our pool area before xmas so I can have a massive NYE party here.  And even though I went to the gym and worked outside for 4 hours moving tiles I feel fantastic.  Well.... that was until i walked inside to find the dog had snuck in and trampled mud all over the carpet i had cleaned yesterday!!!  Oh well, keep on smiling..

Going to put in a huge effort this fortnight, looking forward to a big challenge ahead.  My 8 week goal is to run 5 kms, that is around our block.  First run on Sunday as tomorrow i have boot camp. have a great weekend everyone xo

A little story of self discovery

I had a trip back down to the country this weekend to see the family.  I was all excited as since starting this journey (the sign up) I have lost 6.1 kilos (4.1 since commencement day) and i hadn't seen anyone so I knew they would be able to notice.

I pull up at mums and she says hi grabs my daughter and asks how the trip was.  No "you look fabulous"  NO "wow you have lost weight"  NO RESPONSE WHAT SO EVER!  That really hurts... 

I proceeded to take everything in from the car up to the room and by the end of the drive and unpacking was exhausted so i grabbed a bottle of water and went to sit down.  "Are you having a champagne"  My response was "no thanks , I will just have water"  ............  That was the start of it, How could i go down and not drink, "For god sake Andrea, just have one, it wont kill you".  or "We'll see how long this diet lasts". 

Now any other time i would give in and JFDI and have the drink so i don't get ridiculed all weekend, but i was determined this time and for me CONSISTENCY WAS THE KEY. 

To top things off tea for the first night (knowing i am on this journey of weight loss) was salad smothered in dressing, none kept aside for me.  With enchiladas covered in cheese and dripping in oil.  I still wonder today was she doing it to sabotage my journey, and if she was "IT DIDN'T BLOODY WORK".

I learnt from the weekend

1. I don't need anyone to tell me I am losing weight and looking good as i look in the mirror and i can see the changes.
2. That my name of FITNFAB4XMAS will stand to show them all
3. Next time I take my own food down
4. and the last is that i am so proud of myself for being able to get through the weekend and still be able to lose weight this week.
5. I love coming home!!!!!!!

I may have a partner who cant do much as he is injured and I may be running around like a lunatic after our 2 kids and trying to finish off renovations, and i know i have to move 2000 roof tiles by the end of the week all by myself, but i know that I AM HAPPY, I AM SELF SATISFIED AND I LOVE MY PARTNER AND KIDS.

Gaining Inspiration from another 12wbt

Today was boot camp day and I was really struggling to get out of bed due to a sore back.  Instead of laying back down I pushed through the pain and got dressed then decided to do a few stretches at home before heading off to boot camp day. 

You see, if it were just me going to the gym or going for a run i probably would have layed in bed and not bothered but last week i met so many amazing girls who are taking this journey too and that is what gave me the inspiration to just do it!!!

Here's the funny thing, I met Kev (the other trainer) for the first time this morning and first conversation was about all my injuries, knee reco, slipped disc, bad pelvic floor (yay to toilets being at the oval!!) and went on the sob story of my journey of weight gain.  BUT  5 mins into the session I had no time to stop and think about the injuries I had previously as Kev and Jason worked us like you wouldn't believe.  And each time I felt like i was having a heart attack.... it made me smile, as i knew that this was a turning point for me. 

No more talking about the past, just the future and what it takes to get there.  I have used my injuries as an excuse to exercise hard for so long - as soon as the going got tough, it would be "my foot", "my knee" "my back" - No more!!!  Although I did have to run to the loo twice which is out of my control!! I'll blame my daughter for that when she is 18!

Prob the most inspiration moment for me today was Ktee who when doing the Indian running she wanted to give up with about 100 metres to go.  Instead of letting her drop off the back, we cheered her on to keep up with us on the journey and after about 3 seconds she said "I'm back in" - WOW!!!!  Totally amazing as I watched her when she ended and she was over the moon, you could see how proud she was of herself for finishing and i could feel how proud i was that she finished and that the other 3 of us didn't let her give up.  As Mish would say "that was a moment" and one that i wont forget every time i train from now on... to push through that pain and be a team!!  Hat off to you Ktee - YOU ROCK!!!!